#I'm scrolling back through my own blog rn

[to-the-batcomputer]

IM STILL INSANE ABOUT THEM. AGH

[megabuild]

bit of a ramble below! tl:dr; i have insane person problems and realised that this blog isn't healthy for me so won't be coming back until i'm in a better place, i have no intent on deleting it but may password protect it in the coming days for my own peace of mind :P love yall!

the absolute basics on my situation is that i almost certainly have OCD, have been vocal about this likelihood in the past, and while i was aware i was susceptible to obsessions and compulsions irt online interactions and my posts on here i was not actually aware of how debilitating the effect this was having on my life was until i went completely cold turkey and blocked tumblr from all my devices. like genuinely night and day. i have so much more free time when i'm not spending it constantly name searching on every platform available and scrolling through my blog over and over to be sure that i didn't post a slur by accident lol. i'd rather not get into some of the stupider details of shit ive done in the name of perceived moral purity because that's nobody's business but trust me when i say it was like a weight got lifted off my fucking shoulders lol like i was having regular delusions about making a post so bad grian himself would say i should kill myself on stream and believing it was possible 😭 really good disorder guys i love having this

i have a lot to say about the way this community treats each other, both good and bad, but i think i'd rather hold off and make more informed and thought out posts on that when i'm not still reeling from all the bullshit life's been throwing at me. i do love and value this community so much, especially all the mutuals and friends i've made here. i've also been made extremely uncomfortable in the past by the easiness that people slip into very strange relationships not just with CCs but with their fellow bloggers. including me ! and i am a relatively small blogger in the vast scheme of things. this is no hate to anyone who's sent an anon or whatever, many of you are lovely people, but it's also like, well i have been literally stalked on this blog before so i feel i have justification for being a tad uncomfortable . again, a lot to be said on the celebritification of average people and the obsession on making sure one makes "Objectively Correct" choices when doing something as simple as watching a minecraft series and having opinions on it .. but alas, no brain for it right now, and also i would rather not risk the ire of twitter teenager #48 lest i be qrted by thumbnail artists telling me to lighten up and accept the steady decay of all that is good in this sphere in order to make room for more #Content. Sit down and eat your yaoibait you stupid faggot! sorry this is a serious post ignore that part

to any of my beloved oomfies you are free to message and ask for my discord though i am also being a bit difficult to reach over there rn my bad (and i may not get back to you quickly because as soon I post this I am logging straight the fuck back out).. i have made a separate tumblr account from this one which is less social media and more a little archive of images and art i like (and also is not related to mcyt at all, outside of maybe one or two art reblogs if i see something that really catches my eye) so if we've hung out and you don't exclusively post mcyt you might see me around in your notifs but i'd prefer not to be linked back here. any projects, fics, other blogs etc. i have been working on consider on pause for eternity, with the only exclusions being 3rd life miraheze (which i'm currently looking into options for but will certainly never go away! much love still to all our contributors who have worked tirelessly through wild life to update our various spreadsheets and tables) and aoyuer which i'm sort of picking up and taking away and hitting with hammers until it's sufficiently divided from mcyt and i can call it an oc story for real. peep my toyhouse if ye are so inclined and wont tell the adoptbrained callout squads over there that my oc once upon a time was lowkey rpf.

anyway this has already gotten far too long as i'm a chronic yapper and overexplainer but thank you very much for hanging out with me and talking about these stupid ass blocks. i have a handful of posts in the queue i wont be getting rid of and don't doubt i will come back to chat more shit in future but at the end of the day i'm here to have a fun time on the computer and i just was not having that anymore. i was having a scary and fucked up time on the computer, and life is too short to put yourself through that out of some butchered sense of responsibility to the niche follower base you've cultivated. if you also have ocd delete your blog as soon as it hits 1k like actually. if you worked in the askbox mines and are now facing redundancy then go follow my enemy thecoolerliauditore. or dont im not your boss anymore. im too busy homebrewing my 3ds. smooches mwahs !!!!!!!!!

[dr-spectre]

I've been reading your blogs regarding s2's story mode (which I'm coincidentally also playing through rn lol) and I love the vent-song interpretation for Callie!! The other posts have honestly been an eye opener for me lmao

I personally always saw it as turquoise october making their own little tributes to her (especially girl from Inkopolis) using samples from her older songs (tho it's still music from the life callie was trying to run away from, so I'm not confident in my theory :')), like they're appreciating and celebrating her

(Generally I fell that the squid sisters are PAINFULLY underutilized in the story modes they're in, it hurts me.)

AYEEE! I'm glad that I've been such an eye opener for you and I hope that you enjoy Splatoon 2's hero mode a lot more because of it! That's my goal man, to make people have deeper appreciations of stuff in Splatoon because there's a lot of stuff that I think is really really cool and interesting.

Now in terms of the Squid Sisters being underutilised? I 1000000% agree with you. Despite them being the OGs, their stories have been mishandled and to be honest, we don't know much about them compared to Pearl and Marina.

This single image put me into a frenzy because they actually SHOWED shit from their past which is something that Nintendo rarely does....

Off the Hook in their story modes got optional lore content decided to THEM!!!! They had chat logs and a FUCKING DIARY!! WHAT DID THE SQUID SISTERS GET IN SPLATOON 2?!?! A COUPLE OF SUNKEN SCROLL ENTRIES THAT BRIEFLY TOUCHED ON IMPORTANT STORY DETAILS THAT PEOPLE DONT FUCKING TALK ABOUT!!!!!! RAHHH!!!!! (And a prequel tie in story that no one gives a shit about aside from youtubers explaining Splatoon 2's hero mode and then saying Callie was KIDNAPPED AND BRAINWASHED 5 SECONDS LAT-)

In Splatoon 3 ROTM, same deal, we got cute pics and some sunken scroll entries and that's it.

I love Off the Hook! I really really do but oh my GOD I hate how they hog up all of the cool lore and backstory details man!!!! Why do Off the Hook get to have more personal story modes yet the Squid Sisters don't?!

ROTM was the perfect opportunity but they didn't do ANYTHINGGGGG! The Squid Sisters were just comediac relief and that's so disappointing CONSIDERING WHAT HAPPENED IN THE LAST GAME!!!! I like their jokes and they bring a warm energy to the story, but how they were handled vs. Off the Hook in Side Order is a night and day difference!

And now people online say that they don't want them to come back?!?!? I saw a video about a guy rambling about Splatoon 4 and what he wanted to see. And hearing him say that he doesn't want the Idols to return because "oh it's an end of a trilogy. They shouldn't come back." Really pissed me off, to be honest.

The Squid Sisters feel incredibly underutilised and their story modes were heavily botched. Especially Splatoon 2's.... the shit I see about that story mode still persists till this day and it's making me go bananas... but you know already. Ugh... the blatant disrespect people have over Callie....

I just hope they make a come back for Splatoon 4. I dont need them right away but I just hope they make some substantial appearance in Splatoon 4 and go on a new arc that explores the duo further. A Side Order/Octo Expansion type of story for the Squid Sisters with Agent 4 or something would make me so.... happy...

Also, just wanted to say too, poor fucking Deep Cut, I hope they don't suffer the same fate as the Squid Sisters.

(First photo by frequent.squidsisters on Instagram)

[reorientation]

hey there. idk if you remember me but im the lesbian virgin anon

its been a while, hope youre doing well. im still a useless silly little virgin who is clinging to my lesbianism by a thread because i can only get off to the daydream of a man fucking me

i literally cant fantasise about being with a woman. the only thing that gets me wet and aching fast is thinking about a man forcing himself on me, either fast and hard or manipulative and slow, it doesnt matter.

in my mind he's always bigger, strong, and just appears out of nowhere, grabs me, bends me over whatever the nearest surface is wherever i am (public or not) and just fucks me like he owns me, and as he does he makes me keep repeating that im a lesbian to everything he says......

fuck.... im sorry i just.. rediscovered your blog again after a while and have spent the last few minuets getting hot and bothered while scrolling through, but rn im not in a place where i can get off so I'll just torture myself like this until i can 🥰

Of course I remember you, sweetheart! (Previously.) I was just wondering where you'd gotten to, in fact. (As opposed to what you'd gotten off to; I had quite a good idea of that.) I'm so pleased that you've come back - and that you weren't able to come as you returned to my words, so that you just had to be wet and desperate. ❤️

Have I told you how much I love that I've ruined you like this? That the very first thing you told me is that "im a lesbian 100%", and now you can't come without thinking about a man raping you? That's my touch on you, sweetness. Even if I never get to bend you over and use you myself, I've left my mark on your pussy.

There's even a little of me in your fantasy rapist - we both have you keep calling yourself a lesbian while that slips away from you with every moment and every word.

[rpfisfine]

hello!! it's idat twt video anon back from the dead (I'm terrible at maintaining conversation)

I wanna thank you again for being a hub for our collective insanity, I've been scrolling through your blog lookin at what boyboy deep cuts I've missed and oh BOY the oil video is quite something. and I feel like I should share /my/ deepcut that I found even though it's nowhere near the same genre as the other stuff but a fellow man of culture (aleksa enjoyer) will appreciate it I think

https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x7s9nvk

so I watch idats one man band video maybe every week because one man band aleksa has such a grip on the creases of my brain folds, and one day I was lightly searching, perusing if you will, to see if he's done more music stuff and I found this gem courtesy of dailymotion user HankSydney. about half an hour of Aleksa singing what I assume is Serbian folk and honestly what a treat. none of us have ever done even close to what would be enough to deserve this. wonderful

(im gonna ask if I can give myself one of those anon ID emojis until I can figure out whether to ~unmask~ (come off anon), I propose 🌵)

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HELP ME... you're all completely welcome i myself have been made aware of SO many deep cuts i wouldve legitimately never found out abt on my own thanks to you guys!!!! the oil video is...... lets just say that i saw the greatest minds of my generation destroyed by boy boy oil video.

ohhhhhhh my god im gonna go crazy..... yeah ive known abt his appearance at the serbian festival in sydney for a while now but for some reason ive been putting it off the entire time bc i knew itd obliterate me in a completely different way than any video of him & alex borderline touching penises ever could so thank you for finally forcing me to check it out!!! ive just done the kubrick stare at my monitor for about thirty minutes like im honestly speechless hes SO...... his singing voice is SOOOOOO much deeper than his speaking one and the way he sings is so soulful and emotional you can rly tell how truly passionate he is abt music thats so fucking crazy... plus all of the songs are sooo beautiful im definitely gonna go back with shazam in hand and try to find all of their names like its just that dire for me rn. save me serbian folk music

i need to share this clip at least bc this part fucking gagged me to PIECES... im trying my hardest to be normal but hes sooo charismatic & confident and such a great performer plus he works the crowd rly well...... also every time he looks up after pausing the looper his eyes r so like.. electrifying i need to be sedated i think. tldr hes soooooooo talented & funny & good at what he does twirling my hair hiiiiii aleksa. aleksa heeeyyyy hiii aleksa<33333 if you read this im free on thursday night we could hang out on thursday night when i am free please respond to this im free on thursday night

[absyntthe]

People you want to get to know tag game

Was tagged by @layalu :3

Last Song: I've been listening to a lot of video game soundtracks. I think the very last thing I listened to was Bismarck's theme from FFXIV. I think it's really neat that the boss themes in FFXIV aren't what you'd expect from boss music. Bismarck had no right to be that groovy btw. I don't know if that's the case across the rest of the Final Fantasy series as I've only played 14 & uhh Kingdom Hearts idk if that counts lol. I also have been listening to a Resident Evil Chill playlist on Spotify.

Favorite Color: You cannot ask an artist this. You just can't. I love all colors idk if that's a cop out LOL. It's probably easier for me to tell you the colors I don't like.

Last Movie/Show: I don't watch a whole lot of stuff. I think the last movie I watched was My Big Fat Greek Wedding with my one IRL. And the last show I watched was The Walking Dead with an internet friend. I kind of view watching shows and movies as a group activity I suppose? It's hard for me to sit down and watch something all the way through on my own, which is wild because I used to binge TV shows on my own when I was a teen. Plugging my Letterbox'd.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Maybe I'm just an indecisive person because I can't answer this one either. I think right now I prefer savory or spicy more. I eat way too many sweets and I need to cut down on that but they're the only easily-grabbable snack foods we have in the house rn 😩

Relationship Status: In a relationship.

Last Thing I Googled: Urth's Fount boss guide. It's an FFXIV base game boss and I am queueing up for it atm (been waiting for AN HOUR because it's dead content). I need it for my Wondrous Tails quest book tho 😩 As I was writing this post one of the DPS's gave up waiting...I will never forget u queue friend

Current Obsession: FFXIV i dunno if you can tell... 👉👈 I'm still sporadically playing Palia (and running a blog for it) My Dragon Age playthrough with the bf is kind of on hold because we're obsessed with/playing different games atm

Last Book: I've been trying to read more this year because after college I just don't read books anymore :( I'm currently reading Counting the Cost by Jill Duggar. I'm not religious by any means but I've found myself scrolling through Fundiesnark content and researching fundamentalist religions and cults the past few years. (they're scary)

Looking Forward To: I started up my rock-tumbling hobby again, so I'm looking forward to Wednesday when I get to check them! They will more than likely need to go through stage 1 again but it's cool checking on them and recognizing the rocks through each cycle. Also looking forward to TWD: The Ones Who Live in February, and D&D kicking back up with my group on Saturday.

Tag nine people whose answers you are interested in!

I get so nervous about tagging people. If we're mutuals consider yourself tagged.

Totally forgot to add a blank, here it is:

Last Song:

Favorite Color:

Last Movie/Show:

Sweet/Spicy/Savory:

Relationship Status:

Last Thing I Googled:

Current Obsession:

Last Book:

Looking Forward To:

[ronin-deactivated19851026]

so i've been extremely overwhelmed by....... i guess everything online lmao, it's really hard to focus on things when you're constantly bombarded with things you don't really need at the moment

i'm trying to get back into journaling but damn it's so hard. i know my head isn't empty, i spawn walls of texts almost daily, but my mind goes blank when i'm in front of an open notebook because i don't know what's truly worthy of writing down? it's kind of like with drawing at this point. i'm stuck with the art block because i don't know what's worthy of drawing. and guess what made me feel this way? the social media lmfao. i hate that literally every idea i consider cool i never depict because my brain immediately goes like, "who cares about this?", "this won't get noticed and also you're too late, so don't be cringe", etc

i hate this so much idk. anyway, i think i'm going to make a list of things to focus on, both personal projects/artistic inspirations and fandom related ones. i do have things i overfixate on for years, so why am i letting myself be distracted by some random content ideas that only matter to me for like a day or two...?

i should also start limiting inspirations in general, looking at my folder rn and realizing that there are just WAY TOO MANY things i want to incorporate into my work and it really overwhelms me. reminds me of various artists saying that "less is more" and holy crap i should start limiting myself. this is something i slowly started to realize on my own when i did some pixel art, which is limited already due to its nature, with some color palettes instead of randomly staring at a color wheel for half an hour, not being able to decide which one to use.

also i found out about artfol, social media for artists, and so far it seems promising? haven't tried it yet, maybe i will upload some stuff there later. also maybe i'll finally sort everything here on tunglr dot com and make a separate art blog and will use this one as my "main"-diary-esque blog where i won't post much. it's not like i'm on here anyway, my dash feels overwhelming so i don't even scroll past 3-4 posts a day anymore on here. i'm tired of social media. it doesn't feel personal anymore, it's not fun, not interesting...

fomo effect used to fuck me up before something clicked and i stopped scrolling things. because due to nature of the modern internet, i have more chances of stumbling across useful/interesting information if i just keep scrolling through junk. since as you know, google is dead anyway, shit is hard to find these days, and indeed, every cool thing i managed to find was through random braindead scrolling (post 2016 i mean, i miss mid 2000s era when stuff was actually GOOGLEABLE and you didn't need to scroll long ass feed to stumble across cool things, you could get there at your own pace while just surfing the web). so the habit was made worse by "damn what if i miss some obscure post that features obscure cool thing that will matter to me once i get to know it??" but i'm just so fucking exhausted... everything i love about the internet because so dormant, niche even. the internet, as i define it, is dead to me. it's really heartbreaking

[eviltiddyprodnz]

xo kitty: episode 2

aww kitty

the teacher should've just gone to the loo 💀 'why are you not dae'

lmfaooo wait i think she just made him her boyfriend for her mom. ( I thought this was going to happen but then just assumed the worst of dae 💀)

she is dating Julianna after all. saving your girlfriend's name as baby when your parents might not approve is pretty balsy tbh. my girl back at 99%

my mind going ↗️↖️⬆️⬇️ trying to comprehend what the fuck this teacher kitty conversation is supposed to be here for

who wrote the dialogues. what are these conversations. 💀 * Kitty walks in * the guy who had seventeen hot playing in the background 'this girl treats Korean guys like Pokemons' huh !???

Where did that even come from. random and unprovoked lmaooo like they've not had a single conversation.

lmaoo poor kitty. but all of this feels so anti climatic.

dae has sad puppy eyes but like at least text kitty 😭😭😭 like tell her what's up.

even kitty is being so chill about this lmao. he's getting clicked with another girl and she's having a monologue best saved for episode 3 🤣 okay i guess

I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN as soon as I saw food on the table I knew she was going to crash into it but why now 😭

I was about to say slayyy but she just slipped and fell. let me settle open my embarrassment bag.

the way her entire class is about to know about all this. my girl <///3

I'm just going to accept their 0 emotion answers at this point 💀 like how is everything already settled and okay. not even a voice crack in sight

he looks more broken than her 💀

dae's eating it up!!!

aww Kitty 🥺 she's kinda handling it like a champ. let me give her a hug.

lmfaooo why did Q's entire dialogue sound like voice over. what is happening in the production of this show

Dae is the only one acting here 😭

let the wattapad games begin 🤩

at least she scared them away

now Minho sounds like he did a voice over 😭😭😭 why is the dialogue delivery and editing so weird here.

everyone sounds normal now

Minho 💀🤣 i want to say get over yourself but the 'she did this to be closer to Dae AND ME' kinda got me laughing

Minho's accent changed 80 times. Is he British???

she says she doesn't want to talk but you clearly have to?? 💀 I feel like in these moments one should simply just scream the answer ' not cheating cheating on you babe****'

not her being in Dae's room too this could've actually been fun 😭

this is just badly written and boring like at least them in the same room would've been fun!!!

Is Minho Australian or British. Let me Google. A little bit of British in there! also Yuri is his sister irl 💀

Q being real rn. American people will tell you to follow your heart!

Dae is wearing that necklace!!!

I'm sorry but a little scroll through my blogs and you'll know someone wearing a necklace or a ring in a necklace their partner gave them is my kryptonite.

he's acting so well that i am currently rooting for him

lmfao Minho trying to cuddle Dae. #real

not a single emotion in this show is translating through the screen 😔

awww he's sleeping by her door. it's giving puppy, it's giving love, it's giving give me a chance to explain and I'm eating it up 😭

Kitty don't leave your suitcase just on the damn road like that 😭😭😭 the cherry blossom is beautiful but please keep an eye out for your bag!

her mom wants her to stay here maybe idk 🤩

this show is so quiet I'm so serious. not a worry, not an emotion. it's just there. minho's a little funny though.

and she's gone and dae left in the quietest way possible 💀

Dae about to have the worst semester of his life because Yuri's mom will keep them together hence keeping him from Kitty check ✔️

Yuri staring her dad with an open mouth after making that lettuce meme (slay!) if these weren't just consequences of her own actions 😭

Dae running to find his girl in pyjamas. Adorable and real

the kiss that didn't happen was the closest we got to emotions and his dad is here to get him now 😔

they're about to make him sign an NDA my man is GONE

I feel like she could've probably seen the resignation and desperation on his face but she's right to be angry for as long as she likes so I move.

if she choose Minho over Dae, how am I not supposed to feel bad for Dae 💀 once again money ruining things !!!

She clocked in that he's miserable!

this is so unserious why are teenagers having to talk about their relationship

Dae having the worst week of his life, my poor bb. I have decided to adopt him

[flwoie]

hiiii~! i'm back! i was worried abt u but i'm glad u took a rest! im happy ur back~~ i missed sending u stuff! ooh and thank u for all the wonies!! im so happy, i'm still having an enhypen fever (see what i did there lol) rn!!! i'm enha-dazed!

(as per usual, long ask ahead! scroll at ur own risk!)

but i’m so excited for the fic! im really conflicted cuz i am TERRIBLY attached to the main lead cuz he is too precious and didn’t even do anything wrong 🥺 his friends and family just deserted him and everyone thinks he’s a terrible person for no reason which is so 😩

like,, 2378 words and IT HASNT EVEN REACHED THE PART WHERE THE READER ACTUALLY *SEES* THE ML AS A GOOD PERSON!!

okay but fr ive been going through the WRINGER these days, but my wonnie boy has helped me A LOT! he makes me smile sona 🥹💖 like no matter how bad a day im having,,, jungwon makes it feel better~ ( ,,,help im down bad, but i think we already established that lol)

okay also i think its so fun how u were doing some investigating lol! i actually feel like im being SO obvious but i guess not lol and OMG should i unveil myself rn? I CAN, NO CAP I WILL DO IT—

okay, time for the qotd!

would u rather be confessed to under the light of the moon in a secret garden where your partner gently pushes you on an old, childhood swing as he sung an ode to his love (aka you)

OR 

would you rather be confessed to along lit garden walkways, your partner leaning in closer to pick a crimson rose from a rosebush behind you and kissed you as he leaned you back and cradled your head from the thorns?

….this decision will directly affect the outcome of ur fic so CHOOSE CAREFULLY LMAO

i adore you, have the best day or night!

-3

three!! i missed u and ur enha dazed asks LOL

JHSKSJJ HOW LONG IS UR FIC GONNA BE 😭😭 IT MUST BE REALLY GOOD IF ITS LONG

oh noo are u okay tho :( i’m glad that won makes ur day better but i just wanna make sure if ur okay <3 i’ll send a bunch of wonnie pics 🫶

EEE IF U WANNA UNVEIL URSELF GO AHEAD !!! i actually have a few blogs in mind but if you’re not the blogs that i have in mind, then wowie, you’ve done a really great job at being anon ^_^

answering time, my fave!! this one was so hard to pick cause they both sound so JSKSKSJKJ

i might have to pick the first one, i think it’s really cute and the moon is my fave (ahah fun fact, i named myself after beethoven’s piece, moonlight sonata i think i said this many times but it’s a great piece!)

love u moree three, you have an amazing day or night 💗💗💗

[chunkecheeks]

name redacted but. first like month or so of the relationship was normal and then they started venting to me like hardcore CONSTANTLY. everyday. and if i wasn't being helpful enough to them with like advice or whatever they'd start saying shit like "i thought you loved me. i guess not." and then implying they were gonna off themself 😭

obviously that dragged my mental health into the abyss and i was like hey man i'm not doing good i really cannot help you with your venting rn you're going to have to give me a bit to fix my own shit. and they were like okay. but then would constantly come to me like are you better now? can we talk about things now? and i would be like no man, i'm still doing really bad. and they were like but this worked so well for us earlier :( and i had to be like no it worked well for YOU not for me it's actually causing me much undo stress. and they just would nooooooot stop harping on it like this was the biggest dealbreaker in the relationship that they couldn't vent to me anymore so i broke up with them and they begged me to be friends still and i was like yeah okay.

and then like a day later they sent me this longass letter typed up in word document that was all about how i broke their trust and how i needed to work really hard to build the trust back up if we wanted to be friends and how they were still in love with me and wanted us to end up together ultimately and i went HUH?!?!?! and was like okay no we can't be friends. i'm going to block you now because you can't be normal about boundaries. and i thought that was it until like 5 months later they were trying to get some letter to me through my friend which was a fucking batshit move and i'm pretty sure they were like watching my blog 😭

ANYWAYS cut to 2 years later i'm scrolling tumblr and i see a callout post and i see the name and i go huh funny they have the same name as my ex (very specific name) and i kept scrolling and reading it and it was a callout post for this person for grooming and zoophilia and then i get to the end AND THERE'S A PHOTO OF MY EX. IT WAS THEM. I WAS LIKE HUH???????? bc the entire relationship they were like. virulently against this stuff like made that very very clear on both the pedophilia and zoophile aspects so idk what happened in 2 years but clearly a lot!!

anyways i was already glad i got out of that relationship but after all that i was like oh that was god looking out for me there. i didn't just escape a burning building i escaped a sinkhole that sucked the whole building down into an abyss

at some pointi do have to tell y'all everything that happened with my ex. boy isnt that a weird fucking story. and i'm fairly certain they're not watching me anymore so i'm probably safe

[rollercoasterwords]

ok look i have a lot of thoughts abt the way i see lesbians discussed in the marauders fandom BUT for tonight the thoughts that have been toppling like dominoes in my head are mostly centered around this idea of "representation" bc like. ok. scrolling back up here and putting a cut halfway through writing this bc it got long (of course. once again. i need to just accept that i am incapable of being concise at this point).

so i talked abt this a while back somewhere on my silly little tumblr blog and i'm gonna refrain from getting too deep into it rn but just generally just like overall i've noticed this like...specific tone in which people discuss wlw marauders fanfic as though writing about lesbian couples (as opposed to writing about gay couples) holds some sort of like...inherent moral worth? like people will say "ugh we need more lesbian fanfic!!" and like shout about how there is so little wlw fic because of sexism as though tweeting repeatedly about how you just wish there were more good lesbian fics but the only good fics out there are about men because of sexism is like...activism. which. ok. already talked about it NOT getting into it tonight just. the point i'm trying to make here is that i see this general attitude in the marauders fandom where people act like writing lesbian fanfiction is Inherently Morally Superior.

and like. usually when i see those takes i just kinda roll my eyes and move on, because like...i know the people spreading that rhetoric are well-intentioned, and at the end of the day it's fanfiction, it's not that serious, etc. etc. BUT i have sort of...started to notice that attitude bleeding over into some of the responses i've gotten to my writing, mainly from people who say stuff along the lines of, "thank you so much for providing lesbian/sapphic/wlw representation". and those responses have always sort of made me pause and scrunch my nose and go huh. like...you're....welcome? i guess?

and i wanna clarify here--i'm not, like, upset about people saying that to me, and in fact i'm grateful for the kind words, because i understand that the intention behind them is to say "your writing connected with me; i saw pieces of my own experience in your writing; thank you for sharing something that resonated with me in that way." y'know?

but representation. i'm stuck on the word "representation." and it always makes me pause because it's just like. i'm not netflix? y'know? like i didn't write my stories to...represent anyone? i'm just. a lesbian. writing about lesbians. and sometimes not writing about lesbians. y'know?

and the thing that clicked for me tonight about why i think this kind of response throws me off a little is that it's centering an audience. like...i kind of think that conversations about representation are inherently tied to a consumer economy, because they operate on the assumption that the art you're engaging with has been created for an audience--an audience that wants to see themselves in it, meaning there are standards for representation that you should expect and critique. and i think any time the purpose of art starts to orbit around an audience, it starts to sort of...become a product.

and that throws me off! because i'm not writing fanfiction for an audience. i'm not writing it for anyone, really, except myself. in fact, if i find myself thinking too much about my ~readers~, i purposely take a step back and force myself to re-evaluate what i'm writing and why i'm writing it. because for me, the value in writing fanfiction comes from just the simple joy of creating a story that i want to create, and then being able to read that story back to myself. and i only ever started posting on ao3 because i figured "might as well, maybe someone else'll get a kick out of this." and while i value the community that i've found through sharing my writing, that doesn't mean that i want an audience. i've talked about the difference between those two things a lot on this blog, so hopefully u guys get what i mean by that if you've been hanging around my blog for a minute.

anyway, i honestly think this is just like...a perfect example of the insidious ways in which fanfiction getting sucked further and further into a consumer economy alters the ways we engage with it, without even realizing. because like i said, i understand the intention behind the words "thank you for providing representation"--the intention is to say "i connected with this; thank you for sharing something where i could see myself." but if we're growing more and more used to only engaging with media and art through the framework of creator/audience, then we miss out on emphasizing that connection, and instead we end up thanking each other in a way that feels almost transactional, as though we've been provided a service. like...yeah. i've connected the dots. i think that's it.

anyway at the end of the day it's just like...it doesn't really make sense to me to act as though there is some moral obligation or necessity to call for specific types of representations in fanfiction. if there's a story you want to write, you can write it. that's what fanfiction is. but i think a lot of this rhetoric that sort of moralizes the act of Writing About Lesbians runs the risk of insidiously tying fanfiction into a consumer economy, simply because it's engaging with fanfiction as though it's like...content or a product, y'know? and that makes me wary. so. yeah. that's one of the things i've been Pondering tonight i suppose!

[seelestia]

My dearest author, I come bearing not so happy news as, I am now expected to become a semi-functioning normal person, I am moving to a whole new city that's like 2 hours away from home and I may or may not be able to use wi-fi because we haven't installed one yet (not to mention we have to find an affordable one :'D)

So if you don't see me popping up in your inbox for the next few days or even months (i hope it doesn't get to that), then rest assured that I have not abandoned you :''D I'm just getting beaten by life and adulthood rn :''(

I'm also writing this in advance so I can maybe catch your answer just before I move so I can still have internet, so once you might go active after 2 days then I might still see your answer :''D

As my unofficial and hopefully temporary farewell, all I can say is that, I really appreciate you taking the time to answer all of my asks until now, you're probably one of my favorite authors, not just because of your amazing fics and drabbles but also because I was fortunate enough to be able to talk to you and become one of your regulars :D

And i may be getting ahead of myself but- since I'm going to be gone indefinitely, I'll send in my request now and maybe once i get back I'll be able to scroll through your blog to find it! (but of course, pls don't be pressured to write for me!)

My request: Reader having one-sided feelings for Zhongli for years, and they do eventually get into a relationship but Reader discovers that Zhongli still loves his previous lover (could be Guizhong or someone else if u want).

Instead of being angry or betrayed, Reader admires how much Zhongli loves his past lover, and pretty much just stays in a relationship with him fully aware that he does love them to an extent, but they are not his greatest love (we love angst in this household)

I know this is a pretty short ask to send especially since it's pretty much goodbye until I come back, but I don't really want to bother you with too much filler text hehehe

All I can really say is, I'm gonna miss tumblr, the internet, and especially you and our talks my dearest author :'D

I bid you the finest and most sincere adieus~ - Ever so sincerely yours, 👹✨ anon <333

AHH, MY BELOVED ANON. i just got to reply to my inbox today and i'm not certain if i managed to catch you, but just know that i'm over here wishing you the best! 🫂 moving to another city or just change in itself can be vv overwhelming and i hope you can take time to settle down at your own pace :( (and get an affordable wifi too!)

i'm going to really, really miss your asks and fun questions and tutoring lessons about SAGAU — you're the best experience i could ever expect from an anon, even if it was your first time being one with me! if i'm one of your fav writers, then you're definitely one of my fav friends here <3

and it seems you're using your 👹✨ anon privilege~ ding ding, you've successfully reserved a spot in my future requests like i once promised you! and as always, your idea is SO GOOD <3

i don't want to say goodbye just yet, so i'll settle to see you soon instead. i will really miss you, anon :( but for now, focus on yourself and take care~ i will still be here if or (hopefully) when you come back! lots of love from me to you 🫂

[sallysoot]

Sally... Sally I've been thonking real hard ,it's been a while since I've been on your blog (expect me scrolling through the blog and sending you a long detailed ask about how great and big your brain is), so I dont know If this was already spoken about but I have techno brain rot and it wont go away unless I type It out and share it <\3

Imagine that Reader is already someone well known to decorate themselves with gold (extra points if they were a hybrid of some sort), so the first encounter with techno hes just completely enamoured by how the gold jewels accentuates their appearance, so slowly but surely he starts crushing on them but he denies this bc "I'm a piglin its only fair I'm attracted to gold, no ulterior motive.." .......hes lying

So after a long time of just non stop pinning techno starts wanting Reader to wear more gold jewels, specifically ones he makes/gets, because what's softer than admiring something so beautiful than wanting to decorate it more?

So he starts taking up making small gold jewelry like necklaces, bracelets, anklets (MAN I WOULD DIE IF ANYONE GAVE ME AN ANKLET), they dont have his name full carved out but they have his initials carved at the least expected places, he tells him self this is just to mark up his brand and NOT to subtly mark you as his, 'He' is NOT possessive.

Also? fun fact ? if you both grew to be super close hed start making jewels out of smelted Totems of Undying because hes basically hitting two three maybe a whole flock of birds with one stone, He gets to gift you jewels, he gets to see you in jewels and puff up in pride since you liked his work so much youd wear it, he gets to subtly mark you, AND protect you from Harm, how cool is that?

Also?? again?? what if this was just his way of courting you because hes a piglin hybrid? And this poor boy is so confused to why he suddenly wants to take up jewelry not knowing that his piglin brain was jump kick started by seeing someone else wear as much gold as him, and reader is so confused but very flustered by all of these gifts but doesnt say anything bc uhm hhuhe who would pass up an opportunity for some cute ass jewelry??? but they dont see the more they accept His gifts the more enamoured and accepted his brain tells him he is by you (oufhgh... dipping our feet into yandere territory there ahaha,,,) bc in his culture accepting gifts is just another way of saying "yes I like you :)"

But,,,, even more,,, what if reader starts giving HIM their own jewellery or jewellery they made for him as a sign of gratitude bc damn these are a lot of gifts man,,,, theyd seem like an ass just accepting and not giving. but little do they know accepting a gift and giving a gift back means so much to him and his culture because that's basically saying "yes, I like you.... back :)" and poor boy just starts short circuiting not knowing what's wrong bc hes spent so much time , F.

And if reader accepts him as theirs the gold will start to get bigger and bigger as time passes, just imagining a full blown out set of gold accessories while going into town bc hell yeah bro who wouldnt go out side looking hot sexy and good .

Anyway this is my first time sharing my thoughts, I'll DEF write more if you liked it jwjsnsbsnf rn I need sleep bc my eyes are shutting down- <3 Anon [ps I love you! take care of your healthy <3<3<3]

(dw about always maintaining activity!! i will do my best, so u gotta take care of your health too!!)

THAT’S SO SOFT STOP IT >:( DON’T MAKE ME FEEEEEEL. i LOVE him!!!! techno would be so flustered to get a gift back, like absolutely just... DESTROYED over it. blushing and averting his eyes because you like him (back)!!!!! you’re both just decked out in solid gold all the time. for him, culturally, it looks like you’re MARRIED.

[lover-of-skellies]

Writing Masterlist

since this is starting to get longer and longer, I figured I’d put a cut, just to save everyone some time when scrolling through my crap here :P

My other blogs, for anyone who'd like to know where else they can find me on this hellsite: @ohgodallthefandoms-backup (my main), @zlamina (only animal stuff), @skelesinners-r-us (my nsfw skeleton jester/daycare attendant blog), @ask-the-riders (an ask blog for the riders of the apocalypse), @skellies-art (the place where I put all my doodles), @pareidolia-artprompts (a random art prompt blog where I post visual art prompts), and @radical-superstar-daycare (a special blog I made for Daycare Attendant!Fresh, Sonnie (Sundrop!Conquest), and Lunar (Moondrop!Retribution). The newest addition to my blogs is @tsams-and-co-memes, where I post TSBS memes

Pareidolia-artprompts, ask-the-riders, and radical-superstar-daycare are on a hiatus of sorts rn. Just a heads up, ig

Link to my AO3 here

Link to my Redbubble here

Link to my Ko-Fi here

Buy pokemon cards from my ebay here

AU Skeleton Nickname Master List here

FreshDex link here

Do not send me asks requesting donations and such

I'm literally a broke ass bitch and even though I'd like to help, I can't. Plus, I have trust issues with these things and can't afford to potentially lose money on scams right now

Choose Your Own Path routes

Start

Handshake

Baby Ducks

Continue Walking

Fight

Rock

One Last Attempt

Choose Your Own Path 2/CYOP2 routes

Start

Walk a little faster

Unlikely Circumstances

Unlikely Circumstances (Part 1)

Unlikely Circumstances (Part 2)

Nep/Gill/Betta Related

In Deep Water

Betta x Reader ("face reality" prompt)

The Union

Congrats, You're a Dad!

UnderFell/MafiaFell(/MobFell) Related

To The Moon and Back (UF!Sans x Reader)

Light In The Dark (UF!Sans x Nyctophobic!Reader)

Family Secrets

Necro/NecroTale Related

Necro's story (part 1 of ???)

Touch starved (w/Necro)

Red Velvet (a father's day scenario w/Mal and Necro)

My Glitchy Daughter

Nightmares

HorrorTale Related

You Should Be

Distractions (HT!Sans x Reader fluff that very quickly becomes suggestive)

Eat You Up ("hunted down" horror prompt w/HT!Sans)

Marked

Nightmare/Bad Sanses Related

Alone (Nightmare x Reader (kinda sorta))

Nightmare's Puppets

A Way Out

Mother Void

Locked up and left behind (w/Nightmare and Mal)

Mistake/Accident prompt w/Cross and Error (comic)

No Strings On Me (puppeteer prompt w/Error and Nightmare

Little Hellion (Dadmare & baby Nyx)

Sleep Paralysis horror prompt w/ Sleep Paralysis!Nightmare

Abyss (Sleep Paralysis!Nightmare prompt continuation)

Overgrown - prompt w/Nightmare

Comfort food - prompt w/Horror

Rampage - prompt w/Nightmare

Fear of the Dark (Figment!Killer blurb)

I Am Dust And Shadow (Figment!Dust blurb)

Dream/Star Sanses Related

Locked up and left behind (w/Blueberry)

The birth of Yanberry (horror/angst prompt w/Shattered Dream and Blueberry)

Template (and eventually Pale) Related

Template's Offer

Spider Donuts and Scarves (a father's day scenario w/Mal and Template)

Mal Related

Mal to the Rescue/Error Gets Vibe Checked

Mal's New Attack

Mal and Geno - family fluff

Mal's Great Escape

The origin of a name (contains TWs)

And Then There Was One

Mal discovers she's pregnant

Mal meets herself

Ships

A Life Worth Living (CrossMare fluff prompt)

Cause of Death: Love (NightBerry angst)

Greatly Disappointed (NightKiller angst)

Slammed into a wall (w/ErrInk)

"Hang on, hang on, we're gonna fall off the bed/couch-" (fluff prompt w/ErrInk)

Mine ("til death do us part" prompt w/Dark Cream)

Never Speak To Strangers

Start

Check Other Windows

Risky Business

Start

Sure, but we need to make it fast - route

Apologize - route

Try the front door of the facility - route

Use the vent - route

Go into the daycare attendant’s room - route

Other Characters

Forum Deals With Flirting

Kisses, cuddles, and cocoa (UT!Papyrus x Reader)

Paps' Nightmare

That's how much I love you (Yandere US!Papyrus x Reader)

That's how much I love you [part 2] (Yandere US!Papyrus x Reader x Yandere US!Sans)

Info masterlist on my characters

Reasons To Not Mess With Mal or Betta

Kiss prompt masterlist

Headcanon voices/audio edits/voice claims masterlist

Smoochability rating masterlist

Little Thief (NOT AN UTAU FIC)

One Fear (NOT AN UTAU FIC)

Here's a link to my nsfw smutfic masterlist, if you're at all into reading stuff of that nature

And here's the link that'll take you to a masterlist of stuff for the riders of the apocalypse :P it's both an info masterlist and a writing masterlist rolled into one, so ye

EDIT: if you have something you'd like me to write, feel free to send me an ask :) I'm not at all judgmental and I'll write just about anything. I'm even willing to take smut requests as well, if that's more your cup of tea :P (request smut stuff here -> @skelesinners-r-us)

((If any of the links don't work or take you somewhere other than where they're supposed to, let me know!))

[tartagliaxx]

hihi how are you?? i hope you're doing good :D

do you have any tips for starting a blog? i'm kinda new to tumblr so i don't know much about navigating and making a pretty theme and customizing.

it's ok if you don't want to answer! no pressure! <33

hello there! i'm doing very good, thank you for wish me well! uh long post ahead.

ummm well it depends on the type of blog you're running? tbh i don't know a lot either. back when i still wasn't writing, i was just spending a lot of time in the tags i liked and i saw many blogs that inspired me to make a hopefully pretty blog. In terms of navigation, i just use the search bar like yknow... googling but i remember to follow authors and reblog their works so tumblr's algorithm syncs up with my interests. you might encounter profile recommendations on your dash when you're just scrolling through and those are usually related to the content you've been actively intaking. so yeah, just follow and rb the content creators that you like bc not only is it a show of appreciation, it's also a way to personalize your tumblr and fill up your blog.

speaking of blogs, tags have been my best friend since i reworked mine. you can use it to organize your posts and make the search easier in case you have smth you need to find. for instance, i use 'spread by word of tongue' for all the fanfics i recommend so when someone wants to read through them, it'll be easy-peachy! if you're making original content, it's also smth that boosts visibility. tag as much as you want, there's no shame in that (except the 30 tag limit lol). they do have that thing where they say you have to put the five most important tags in the front bc those are the only ones that pop out or smth. i don't really get that either but i just do it anw. interacting w people would also get your name out there so if you drop by askboxes or leave comments... those would help.

finally, themes! honestly, it's all about finding an aesthetic you vibe w and working w it. tumblr has two views (at least, the ones that i consider): the mobile and website view. the website view is more flexible and you could easily adjust the HTML codes. thankfully, a lot of talented users share their codes for free so you could copy and paste them on yours and just adjust colors and whatnot as needed (ofc be careful of what they allow and what they don't and other prerequisites before you use the theme) theme-hunter is a nice place to start if you're looking for some themes. for mobile, it's much simpler? there's not a lot you can do w it so you'll see users like me add pics and dividers and other sorts of stylization. you can hide the avatar/header, change accent colors and stuff. there are also a bunch of creative tumblr users who make matching/themed headers and icons. some of them even take requests for free and that's so pog of them.

those are the things that come up on top of my head like rn,, tbh tho, i feel like you'll figure it out on your own the more that you use it? fr my blog used to be so ugly and now we're here and it's... well, it's tolerable. anw, i hope i helped!

[sherlock-is-ace]

1/n Hi again :D I was just scrolling through your blog and OMG?? You like House too? AND you actually know stuff about bollywood and the fact that it's called hindi and not "indian" and you know Ayushmann! I am Indian! asdjdjd and that's the country I was talking about when i mentioned foreigner syndrome! I am all excited but in reality India has sooooo many languages and I'm more fluent in english than hindi (I'm probably just as bad at you at translating hindi 🙈 eeek)

(again I will reply to all the asks in the same post but I will do one by one cause I have the brain of a mosquito and I fear I will leave things unanswered lol)

Hello!! :D I do like House, watched it this year for the first time as parto of my Hugh Laurie obsession phase lol djgkhdkfg I love it so much! :D And I looove Bollywood movies and Ayushmann so much! (I watched his entire filmography, even the not so great movies, in like a week and a half lol). I’ve done so much fan art of him too... it’s even a lil embarrassing how much I love him dkjfhgkf And I’m even learning Hindi cause I love the language so much :’) Tho it’s been a while since I do any revision or any of my “homework” for it... Need to get back to it but I’m sort of busy with Christmas present making rn lol

ksfhgfkg thank you! <3

Yeah Tokio in season 1 was ok, I don’t think I ever liked her, but she certainly didn’t bother me as much lol And yes! the love thing, writers in tv shows and movies are constantly making ever character fall in love and have a partner as if that’s the only thing that would make them interesting... The writers of lcdp sort of speeded the process up a bit lol I actually headcanon the Profe as ace :’) I did since the second he came on screen, and nobody can take that away from me, maybe that’s why I don’t like Raquel, tho I did at first! But I wanted her to stay the “enemy” type charater. I imagined she would be in charge of the investigation for the next heist too, and be sort of like a love-hate, flirty enemies with the Profe. But then they made her join him and to me, they fucked up. I guess it makes sense cause the show was suppose to end there, and season 3 and 4 (and now 5) weren’t on the table when they wrote that...

Oh I love Berlermo! :’D They’re such a powerful, complicated and sad couple, I love it so much! dfkghjdfg I do understand Sergio’s worry about them being together at the same heist, cause like, when the 3 of them were at the monastery, he could keep an eye on them, and make sure they weren’t doing anything too crazy. I think even with the plan, Sergio was the one that kind of brought them back to reality cause if Andrés and Martín were left to their own devices, they would have made such a crazy and non realistic plan, they would have died the second they went in lol. I mean, they are smart, very smart! But they’re also too emotional and get excited too easily, while the Profe is more of a perfectionist and wouldn’t leave anything to chance or to improvisation. Sergio’s plan might have been keeping them apart for the first heist at least, but it backfire a little when Berlín didn’t come out of it, and that sent Martín spiralling down and made him even more emotional and unstable, which wasn’t exactly the best for the second heist kdfjhgdfg

I do think, that if Berlín and Palermo had been together in both heist, first of all, neither of them would have died (at least in the first one, idk what’s gonna happen on this one, i think everyone’s dead but idk lol), and then, yeah, it would have been way more succesfull. Specially cause it would be more difficult for the rest of the gang (and the hostages) to stand up to two crazy bastards instead of just one lol

It makes me happy too! :’D I’m very excited for season 5 but I can feel how painful it’s gonna be lol My theory? Everyone dies. My hope? If they do die, I hope they die at the same time, in like an explosion or something, I can’t bear to think of any of them being aware that someone else is dead. I specially hope this for Palermo and Helsinki, both of them lost so much already, I couldn’t take it if one of them died first, and the other one had to deal with that loss as well, they better die at the same time in a fast and fairly painless way kdfjhgdfg

Yes, spanish is my first language. I can’t say I understand you falling in love with it cause I hate it lol (again, because I’m used to I supposed), but I do kinda get it cause I fell in love with hindi and I’m even going to the trouble of learning it lol which isn’t a trouble at all cause I actually have a lot of fun! And you with the lcdp interviews is exactly like me with any interview with indian actors lol I just go by context, the few english words I can get and the very very few hindi words I do know lol And I understand... nothing dkfjhgdfg

Oh keep them coming ;) I’m having a blast! You’re so very sweet, thank you!! <3 So glad you like my gifs dfkghdfg and yeah, I simply had to gif The Scene™ lol it’s too good not to, and I stopped the gifset before the crying cause my heart could not take it dkfjhkdfg

Hope you have a good day/night/whatever it is when you see this! You are one of the kindest people I talked with in this fandom (probably cause I had a couple of very bad experiences the moment I joined lol but still) <3 <3

🥂💙